Now's when the bliss ends though. I turn my thoughts inward, to the tangled mess of thoughts that reside in my mind. It's been a rough couple weeks. I can't look toward the future, and it's hard to place why. Maybe it's because, for the longest time, I didn't want there to BE a future (woaaahhh, depressing fact. Back it up here). Regardless as to why, it's becoming an issue. I'm not enrolling in college yet because I really can't see myself there. I'm stuck at a job that I get no enjoyment from because I can't really see another option. It sucks. When I look toward the future, it's blurry; I know that the future's uncertain for everyone, but this goes so far beyond that. It's like I'm looking at something that really shouldn't be. I'm sure this feeling will pass eventually, but for now it's so, so tiring. Add that to the other stuff that's in my head, and it feels like I'm about to pop. But enough boo-hooing. I swore to myself that I wouldn't let this be a catch-all for my negativity, and I intend to stick to that declaration. I have twitter to vent to (sorry, followers [but not really]). I'll close this post with a little something I've been thinking recently:
Everyone is hurting. Even if they don't say it; even if they really don't know it. Take comfort in that fact, and be humbled by it. Be comforted in knowing that you're not alone in your struggle, and be humbled in knowing that your problems are not greater than anyone else's. Love unconditionally, and let yourself be loved. Accept comfort when offered, and offer comfort when it's needed. If we all strive to do this just a bit more, maybe it can put us on the right track as a species -- because right now, we're sinking deeper and deeper.
